The Wind Beneath My Wings

When I was a young girl it seems life wasn't going anywhere fast. I was having a blast playing outside, riding a bicycle, playing baseball with my dad and siblings, making mud pies, running through the sprinkler on a hot and humid day... I could go on and on. But then you grow up and become responsible and you begin to think of others more.

We lived next door to my 5 girl cousins. We called them the T's: Teresa, Tina, Tammy, Tonya, and Twyla. I was Tina's age and we went through school together. My brothers went to school with Teresa and the other girls were a couple of years behind us. My dear sweet Teresa just lost her oldest daughter this past week. Her name was Tara. She was a light that always shined. Thirty-five years old ~ gone... She made some bad decisions in her youth and paid for those actions dearly. But in the end she gave life to the fullest and loved deeply those around her during her darkest days. She was baptised approximately 5 hours before she lost her battle. Her funeral was this past weekend. I always dread those things but am always blessed from the things that are said about the people who have just passed. She was an amazing artist. Both on the canvas and off. Remarkable talent! I feel so deeply sad for my cousin, Teresa, and her husband Phil and the youngest daughter, Trisha. You know the song, The Wind Beneath My Wings by Bette Midler? Well, that would describe the relationship between Trisha and Tara. Tara was the one with all the boyfriends...

Here is a pic of Tara - the only one I could find and I didn't know I had one! She has the sun glasses on. Teresa has on the black and white print shirt. Rest in Peace, Tara.

Almost Easter

This year is going by so fast that I can hardly take it all in sometimes. My son and his family will have been with us for 3 months on the 28th of this month. Talk about FAST! Oh, and the house they found? It fell through... I know it was not the house meant for them because it didn't work out. God has something else in mind and I can't wait to see what it will be. My son works hard, is a loving father to his 2 little girls and faithful friend to his wife. He deserve s a break Lord! I am praying for my wonderful Lord and Friend to let us know it's coming. He never lets me down. Always good to me.

Your word is a lamp to guide my feet

and a light for my path.

I've promised it once, and I'll promise it again:

I will obey your righteous regulations.

I have suffered much, O Lord;

restore my life again as you promised.

Lord, accept my offering of praise,

and teach me your regulations.

My life constantly hangs in the balance,

but I will not stop obeying your instructions.

The wicked have set their traps for me,

but I will not turn from your commandments.

Your laws are my treasure;

they are my heart's delight.

I am determined to keep your decrees

to the very end. Ps. 119: 105-112


Wow! That said a lot to my spirit! We should always praise our God when we pray! Always! He loves that! He waits to hear from you! Just open the bible and you will find praises for God everywhere!

As we get ready for Easter let us remember Who died for us and why He died. Jesus carried a tremendous love for each and every one of us. You will never fully understand why He died unless you open your mind and allow God to speak to you. Read His word and meditate on it one day at a time!

I'd Like to Spend a Day ...

Sailing a boat...

Fishing off a pier...

Walking trails...

Riding a bicycle...

Singing with a rock band...

Eating dinner with Diane Keaton...

Living in a house like Diane Keaton had in the move, Something's Gotta Give...

Talking to Jesus... except I want more than a day with Him... I want eternity.

March 4th 2010

We lost a loved one, a friend, to yet cancer again. He was a father, grandfather, friend. Jeff Springer is now in that place we call heaven. Heaven is a place that is better than this earth. I believe that, I really do. The peace that comes with death has to be something unimaginable.

Right now I want peace.

We are having some finanacial difficulties but then everybody does at some time in their life. It's our turn. And it's ok. We will survive. We always have. Why? Because. I just know that I know that I know.

My son (and family) has finally found a place to live. Looking forward to moving him out because it's their journey and they need to begin it. I have enjoyed having them here, don't get me wrong. But I miss my home (as in all of it). That's only natural to miss what you've always had but can't have it by yourself.

Need to move on. Need to get ready for the day. Need.

Prayers for Sam (Billie Jo) who just lost her husband of 30 plus years. Prayers for Sherril (who is married to a complete moron). Prayers for Ken (my brother in law) who just lost his brother.

God I trust you. I will always trust you. The devil can try to defeat us but Jesus is our Victorious Savior.

Be kind to whoever you meet today - you don't know where they've been.

Changes for 2010

Life sure changes on a dime. Though we've had time to adjust to the idea it's still taking a toll somewhat on our lives. It's a good toll though. It's making us step out of the boat to walk on that water like Jesus did. He calmed the storm then and he calms the storm - even now when the waters begin to rock us back and forth. What is rocking us back and forth you ask? We've let our son and family move in with us until they can get a place they can call their own. Risky? You betcha! But the ups and downs are going to happen - it's inevitable. And when they come we get through them! It's an experience I know I will look back upon and really say to myself we did a good thing for our kids. Will I do it again? Yes, if that should happen again, yes. My kids are my most cherished gifts from God. I'll never turn my back on them - even if it kills me ---- literally!

Our church family is getting ready to make some changes too. Our pastor, friend, and father figure to some, is getting ready to retire. YUK!!! We don't want him to!!!! But we know we can't change those things. As we prepare for the arrival of our new minister, we are reminded we need to give this new person room to spread HER wings and fly! Yes, HER wings. This will be a problem for some people - and to tell you the truth there will always be those people in your congregation that will never be satisfied with anything that's done. And you know what? I give those people and their little minds to God. He can deal with them a whole lot better than I can! I know there is not one perfect church; afterall, look who the church is! A bunch of sinners; what do 'ya expect? Huh? Huh?

If you are not in a church because of those little minded people, I ask you to not let them deter you from finding your faith. There are so many other good people in church with whom you can feel safe with to tell your troubles too, who will nuture you and be a friend. Just pray to God to help you to find them. He's already helping you if you are reading my post. I love God. He is my friend and I can give Him all my troubles. So can you.... One Day at a Time!

Facebook

I have a Facebook page. But honestly, I don't know what is so great about Facebook. Maybe my age is showing? To me it's just mindless comments about nothing important or relavent to me. There are times when I try to make a comment about God or my walk with Him to see who's really reading it. Disappointment in knowing only one or two people will comment. But I think it's because people are afraid to let the "friends" know them deeply.

This picture is my youngest grandchild, Madyson. She will be one in December. My son and his family live in California. We live in the Midwest. So you can imagine how often I see them... Count the times on one hand. Even though they are quite a distance away I can just pick up the phone and hear a voice and I'm ok again.

My mother in law has been gone now a couple of years and not a day goes by that I don't think of her. Is that because she is near me in spirit? I hope she is. Will my children think of me that often once this life is over? Yes I think they will.

My father in law has been gone a year and sad to say I don't think of him that often. He was an ornery old fart. Very opinionated. I wonder if he is so opinionated with God? Hmmmmmm.

Days at work seem dull. Our season is ending in our work and now we hope to get through the fall and winter. This could be the first time this company has ever had to lay people off. First the part timers will go and possibly one full time employee will go. Things will have to get really bad before I would have to go if you go by seniority but who does that anymore?

Keep praying for Mr. Obama. Why you ask? Because the bible tells us to. Keep praying period. Amen.

Love Your Neighbor

This is the last and most important commandment Jesus gave to his disciples before he was crucified. Are we doing that in our world?

In our little community of 18,000 people we are doing what we know to do. The economics of our community is really changing fast. We need to (each one of us!) ask God for his forgiveness because we have taken terrible responsibility of His creation and have not made wise choices. We have worshipped ourselves more than Him. We have taken more than we have given. We need forgiveness. We need God.

Our church is blessed to have people who follow nudgings from God. Because of those nudgings our church is serving 150 people, who are out of jobs, weekly with free dinner every Wednesday evening. And they plan to keep doing this all summer long and for as long as it takes until things change for these people. And other churches are following suit. It's amazing what God can do through people if we listen to Him. He is talking to you today and I pray you will feel the nudging to be that person who makes a difference in your neighbor's life. Go! Love! Be a blessing to someone today!